Cupid's Wings |
by CCL |
This story was written as
part of the AoVD
Lyric Wheel Project. The theme for the wheel was "Valentine's
Day." Lyrics were provided by L. Summary:
We've all speculated on why Brian let Dom go at the end. Here's my take on
it. Dedications: Okay,
so I got the lyrics today from L and was a bit stumped until I talked to
Khayman on AIM. He said it screamed Brian and Dom and after we chatted a
bit I had to agree. Then the poor thing sat up with me while I picked at
this plot bunny and shaped it into this. Khay, sweetie, I love you to
pieces for planting this idea! Also gotta thank Dallas for giving it a
read through before I posted it. Love you hon! Dom walked towards the row
of tiny metal boxes mounted in the wall of his apartment building and
quickly inserted his key. Various envelopes sat waiting inside, and he
grabbed them and stuffed them under his arm before locking the mailbox and
walking up the two flights of stairs to his small 2-room apartment. The air was nearly stifling
and he dropped the mail on the banged up coffee table before raising the
windows and cranking up the only dilapidated fan he owned. Then he pulled
the dirty gray work shirt over his head and wiped at his chest, mopping up
the beads of sweat there. Casually he threw the shirt into a pile of
similar items and strolled into the kitchen to grab a beer from the dingy
green refrigerator. He lingered in the open
doorway, sighing as the cool air bathed his over-heated skin. Can't
cool the whole apartment like this. He reached in with one banged up
hand and grabbed two of the long neck bottles before slamming the door
closed and moving to collapse on the sofa. The tops clattered to the
floor, skittering across the linoleum when the toe of his boot caught one
on the way down and half of the first bottle was gone before he managed to
finally sort through the mail. There was nothing too
spectacular in the bunch. The electric bill that would have to be
paid soon or even the beer wouldn't be cold. A note from Mia checking up
on him. He'd recognize that scrawl anywhere. And another plain white
envelope with his name just as Dom on the front. No address. No stamp. He downed the rest of the
beer while staring at the strange envelope. His mind drifted over the few
people he'd actually met in his building that might put a note in his box.
Probably the lady from downstairs bitching about the music. He
groaned aloud and rolled his eyes. Not even bothering to open it, he
tossed it to the side and settled to read Mia's letter first. After the
hellish heat and long hours, Dom wanted something good to come home to,
not some one bitching about the volume level on his meager stereo. Mia's letter pulled at his
heart. She spoke of school, Vince, the other racers, and filled him in on
how his world was doing fine with out him. Apparently she'd been to see
Vince in prison. She said he was miserable but always tried to put on a
brave front while she was there. Dom chuckled to himself at the way, even
behind bars, Vince was still trying to impress his little sister.
Occasionally, Dom's eyes drifted towards the unmarked envelope on the
table but he shrugged off the desire to open it and delved further into
Mia's letter, looking for signs that she wasn't doing as well as she'd
have him believe. When he got to the second
page, he found a smudged word or two and knew they came from where a few
tears had dropped on the page. This made his own eyes water and he rubbed
at them angrily. A few more gulps of the fresh beer and he tried to go
back to her letter. Finally after staring at the same words for an hour he
tossed it on the table and walked to the window, tears glistening in his
eyes. So Letty and Leon are together? Guess I should have seen that
coming. Apparently the tears were
because Mia didn't want to tell him about the new couple. Dom couldn't
blame her. If he hadn't suspected it all along, the news might have hurt
even more. Perhaps driven him to rage. But he'd realized when she asked to
go with Leon that there was nothing between the two of them and that the
friendship between her and Leon had gotten stronger during the hijackings.
So why they hell am I crying? The darkness settled rather
quickly outside and Dom just leaned on the windowsill, staring down at the
people walking past and letting the slight air currents dry the tears on
his face. For some reason he saw more couples out on walks tonight than he
had seen since the tourist season ended a few months back. An idea tugged
at his mind and he wandered over to the calendar on the fridge. If his
calculations were right that made the date February 14, Valentine's Day. "Well no fucking
wonder!" Dom jerked open the fridge
and this time grabbed a slice of cold pizza and another beer. He stuck the
pizza in his mouth and flipped off the top of his third corona of the
night before resuming his position on the couch and glaring at the still
unopened envelope on the table. With a growl he bit off part of the slice
and dropped the rest on the table next to his beer before snatching up the
white rectangle and ripping off the narrow end evenly. With a puff of air,
the sealed paper inflated and he deftly reached in and extracted...a card? He could barely make out
what was on the front of it, but the fact that it was a card and not some
crumpled sheet of notebook paper still had him confused. Since when
does the lady downstairs use Hallmark to bitch at me? Dom fumbled for the switch
on the lamp and when his pupils finally stopped contracting to adjust to
the light, he gazed down at the card, trying to focus on the fuzzy shapes.
Eventually the red foil outline of a pair of wings could be seen and Dom's
confusion twisted and settled in his stomach as hope. He almost felt like
the wings symbolized the butterflies he now seemed to be suffering from
and without realizing he was holding his breath, he opened the card to see
what was inside. The message couldn't have
been more simple or to the point. I told you that we could
fly, cause we all have wings. They could never tear us apart. Apt. 2C. I'm
waiting. Dom's fingers suddenly let
go of the card and it fluttered to the floor without a sound. He inhaled
deeply and then the memories of the world he left behind came crashing
back in like the tides. Dom didn't want to believe
it when they all sat in that field off HWY 86 and heard from Brian's own
mouth that he was cop. The news sent cold chills down his spine and all he
could do was stare in horror at the man he'd called friend. Vince was
bleeding to death in front of him and the fact that Brian had betrayed him
was the forefront in his mind. When the chopper arrived
Dom and Mia stood back and let Brian help the EMTs load Vince up. Then he
turned away and walked to the car. Turned his back on the man that had sat
at his table and had dinner. He paused at the car and called out to Mia
never making eye contact with Brian. When she finally walked towards Dom,
he got in the car without ever looking back again. The less he looked at
Brian, the easier it was to push the betrayal away. To say that it hadn't
happened. To deny that he had assured Vince, who'd been right all along,
that Brian was not a cop. The drive back to the house
was a blur. Hell, even the confrontation with Brian in the yard was fuzzy.
He remembered every detail of the Tran's shooting Jesse, remembered the
way he'd had that shocked look on his face as the bullets went flying by
him and finally through him. Dom could still feel rage boil over inside
him as he thought about the justice Brian had helped him dish out to
Johnny and his cousin. And then the race. That final drag race that had
nearly killed him. But he'd been ready to
accept his fate. Ready to go to jail for the crimes he'd committed until
Brian had handed him the keys to the car and said simply, "I owe you
a ten second car." At the time it was all the
apology Dom had expected. If he'd only known. It took some time to get
back to the house with his shoulder dislocated. He found Mia shaking and
still cradling Jesse's body, smoothing his hair and rocking slightly. Dom
just rushed into the house, grabbing some money and clothing and tossing
them into a duffle bag. He picked up the phone and carried it out to Mia,
handing it to her while stroking her back. "You'll need to call
them about him. I can't. I can't even wait around with you, Mia. I'm
sorry." The apology seemed empty to
his ears and her tear-stained face told him she didn't really want his
apologies anyway. "So that's it then?
You're just gonna leave? Just walk out?" He dropped his gaze and
winced at the pain and anger he heard in her voice. Silently he nodded
before chancing a glance up at her and discovering she wasn't even looking
at him anymore. "Mia, listen... I need
your help. My shoulder, it's..." She just nodded. Her hands
moved from Jesse's lifeless face to Dom's shoulder and with a precision
any doctor would admire, she jerked his arm and rotated it just enough to
slip it back in. It hurt like hell and she smiled at his growl. "There. You got what
you needed. So leave already. And don't come back." Dom nodded and got back in
Brian's car, taking a last look at his home before pulling away while Mia
sobbed into the phone. He took the back roads and
alleys to get him to the garage without being seen. He had more supplies
there and he needed to clean up and change before heading out of town.
Then Dom hid the car inside and began grabbing things out of the trailer
when he heard another car pull up. All his instincts screamed for him to
run, but he stood there, rooted to the spot, until he heard that voice. "I know you're in
there, Dom. Open up." Dom threw the switch on the
nearest bay door and Brian quickly darted under it before Dom could change
his mind. "What do you want?
Change your mind about turning me in, Spilner?" "I need to talk to
you." Dom shook his head and
waved a finger at Brian. "No, I think you got that wrong. You said
all you needed to say on the side of the road out there. Unless you have
changed your mind?" Brian shook his head and
stepped closer to Dom, holding his gaze. "No, I didn't change
my mind. But we still need to talk." Dom moved around him,
shoving the bags into the back of a different car. "I don't think so
Arizona. Or was that a lie, too?" "Everything wasn't a
lie, Dom. Can't you believe that?" Brian sighed and ran his
fingers through the tangled blonde curls and paced in a small circle. The
apparent lack of concern in his actions made Dom's control snap and before
he could think he grabbed Brian by the front of his teeshirt and slammed
him against the nearest wall, snarling. "Believe what, Brian?
Why don't you tell me what to believe? You tell me what part was real and
what was total bullshit! I don't know any more!" Brian struggled in his
grasp but didn't try to really resist as Dom yelled out his frustration.
The rage oozed from every bit of Dom's body language and he made no
attempts to rein it in. "Dom, our worlds
collided. We got thrown together in this mess and after getting to know
you, I knew you weren't the monster they tried to make you out to be. Why
do you think I tried to get there before the hijacking happened? I didn't
want anything bad to happen to you. Any of you." "Don't lie to me,
Brian! Not now! You were just looking to impress your cop buddies and earn
a promotion! You set me up!" Dom watched as Brian's eyes
flittered back and forth. He tightened his grasp on the smaller man's
shirt and pushed him harder into the wall. "No! Don't you get it?
After knowing you I realize I don't belong in my world. But without you, I
don't belong in this one either. This life, this friendship is my world.
You, Mia, Leon, Letty, Vince, even Jesse..." "DON'T SAY HIS
NAME!" "Dom, I'm sorry about
Jesse. Hell I'm sorry about all of it! But I can't fix that. The only
thing I could do was give you those keys and let you leave. I couldn't let
them take you down like that." Brian's voice was softer
then, filled with remorse for the way things had gone down. And in spite
of himself, Dom felt his anger fading. He grappled with his thoughts
looking for anything to help him cling to the edge of hatred he was
walking and as the image of Mia crying over Jesse replayed in his mind,
Dom found what he was looking for. "So you did it for
Mia? You did it so maybe she'd forgive you and take you back after you
ripped her family apart? Is that it?" Brian shook his head and
tried to look away, his blue eyes clouded with something Dom couldn't
discern past the haze of his own torment. He jerked his hands in the
shirt, twisting the material tighter and forcing the blonde to look at him
while he spoke. "No? Then why? Cause
you cared about me so much, Brian? Cause you didn't want to see me
behind bars?" "Don't ask me that.
Don't ask me that because you know it's true. C'mon Dom. Don't play dumb
with me now." The answer was enough to
send Dom reeling and he immediately released Brian and pulled away. The
waver in Brian's voice was unmistakable. And Dom shook his head, trying to
dispel the words he was hearing. "It's true, Dom. And
you know it. Here." The words were a whisper
and the feel of Brian's hand on his chest was like fire, covering his
heart and forcing it to hammer madly in Dom's chest. It was surreal.
Almost too much after the events of the day. Brown eyes met blue and held
for an eternity until finally Dom had nowhere left to hide. Not in Brian's
eyes or in his own mind. That first kiss was
hesitant. Brian's lips barely brushed Dom's. Then quickly it escalated.
Hands touched and massaged. Bodies pressed together as soft moans and
whispers echoed in the deserted garage. Dom poured out his frustration and
loss into Brian and the man accepted it, every bit, without question or
judgment. They spent the rest of the day embracing the new world they had
created, together, but all too quickly, it was time for Dom to leave. "I could go with you.
Mexico, anywhere. We could be down there a thousand years and they'd never
find us." "Brian..." "No! No, Dom. I won't
lose this now. I won't let them tear us apart, now! Christ I just found
you!" Dom dropped his head and
shook it again. He walked to the car and opened the door, then stopped and
turned back to his new lover and looked down with a furrowed brow. "Brian, I don't have
to tell you..." He looked up Dom then and
smiled. It was strained and Dom recognized that, leaning to kiss those
sweet lips again. "You must be some kind
of guardian angel sent to keep my ass outta trouble, Spilner." Dom's voice was heavy and
thick, barely carrying the words to his own ears, but apparently Brian
heard him. "Nah, we've all got
wings. But some of us don't know why. Not until we meet that one person
worth saving, ya know?" "Yeah, Arizona. I
know." Dom pulled away and hit the
lever for the bay door on his way back to the car. He cast a long look
back at Brian before sliding into the seat and bringing the engine to
life. As he pulled away from the garage, Dom wondered if he'd ever meet
anyone who'd surprise him like that again. Slowly the memories receded
and Dom was left staring into space. He recalled the card slipping from
his fingers and bent to pick it up. His eyes lingered on the last part. Apt. 2C. I'm waiting. Brian was here. In his
building. Waiting on him. Had been waiting on him. Probably since
the mail had been picked up. "Fuck!" He leapt to his feet and
ran towards the bathroom, stripping out of his clothes along the way and
jumping into the shower to wash away the dirt and grime from the day at
the garage. That task completed, Dom
toweled off quickly and began rambling through his sparse closet for
something that wasn't a work uniform to go and greet the ex-cop. He had
just pulled on a simple pair of black cargo pants, when a knock at the
door made him pause and grumble. "Now what?" Dom grabbed the first tank
top he found and stormed through the main room to jerk open the door, a
half muttered curse spilling from his lips. "What the f--" "Good to see you too,
Dom" The tank top fell from
Dom's hand as his eyes widened in shock. There, in the doorway, stood
Brian. Hair more blonde than ever, skin darkened to a deep honey color
that was accentuated by the white teeshirt and jeans he wore. In his hands
were two six packs of coronas and he had this giant smile plastered on his
face. "You're a long way
from home, Arizona. How'd you find me?" Dom didn't try to hide the
suspicious hint in his words. He even leaned out to check the hallway but
found it deserted save for the sun god now propped in his doorway. "Like the card said,
they'll never tear us apart. Can I come in?" Dom paused for a moment,
looking Brian over from head to toe and sighing loudly. "Just check your wings
at the door, cupid. You won't be flying anywhere for awhile." The
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